“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” –Marianne Williamson
So here I am again!
As you know, or maybe you don’t know…I quit my job and long career in government just over a month ago to go for what I really want and told myself that I would check in with myself in regards to where I am with the progress and process of taking on a new life in the name of passion. So of course I thought why not blog about it. The big thing is that I feel a lot shaky, misunderstood by others and that people really do not know what to say or cannot believe I even did it, that I am doing it. Others say nothing at all. Then there are those that know how long I have wanted to be ‘in’ fashion, they get it and are happy for me. Sometimes I cannot believe it either and although I have far to go, that I have even made it this far. I think to myself, self “Who do you think you are?!” Then I have to tell myself, self: “I am a Personal Stylist and Make-Up Artist damn it!So work it! Make it until you make it!”
In this first month I have taken in a lot of information from articles, Facebook groups, friends and other blog postings regarding my current situation of building a service based business and all that it entails, especially within the first year. I am currently, as I write this spending time in Los Angeles nurturing my creative flow and I think I’m more confused now than I was when I quit. I guess that comes because you (or, in this case, I) realize there really are many possibilities and options and with options come more options which can lead to more questions. Which is good yet can be uneasy for a Libra who needs balance and at times has difficulty making final choices regarding major dilemmas. I am going with what feels warmer and more pleasant, however what feels warmer and more pleasant per say is not the Big Bang for my buck or so it seems it wouldn’t be, however doesn’t necessarily mean it isn’t. My first thought after taking such a leap in quitting my career to go for my passion career was to keep it simple and stay in San Diego to build my personal styling business versus going to the ever crazy LA. Yes it would be great to be a fashion stylist to the rich and famous by working my way up as an intern, assistant and so on… Yes working in LA may supposedly be easier in regards to building clientele because of the starry-eyed environment, yet is it really easier or just more of??…This environment may even make it more difficult.The rich and famous stick togetha and sometimes it is all about who lets you into their circle. I find that LA is more of the fast pace, fast life, more of the struggle and hustle that is everywhere. Yet San Diego, although there is hustle in the air it is not as apparent. I don’t smell hustle in San Diego like I do in LA because it is just so much more mellow and laid back, not as on the grid as LA yet not too far away. There is less fashion and fame as an industry in San Diego yet it is still fashionable with an array of professionals that do, can and will use my services as a personal stylist and make-up artist.
So I thought, maybe this Pro/Con list will help?
Pros of LA
1. Fashion/Fame industry is the backbone of the city.
2. More options such as TV, film, editorial and photo ad jobs.
3. Celebrity clientele is a possible reality.
4. Make More $$$.
5. I have contacts in the area to get on gigs that will lead to future possibilities.
Cons of LA
1. Cost More $$$ to live overall.
3. Feels crowded and constricting unlike what I am accustomed to.
4. The hustle is everywhere making me feel like I will do nothing but work, work, work rather than enjoy my life. Contrary to the reason I became an entrepreneur. I want more control over my life and schedule.
5. Everybody thinks they are somebody and not necessarily in a good way.
Pros of San Diego
1. Not everyone is an aspiring stylist so more biz for me!
2. There is a niche to market and offer my services.
3. I am familiar and have a foundation here yet close enough to LA to attend occasional jobs for experience, industry events, connect with up and coming designers, photographers, etc. and attend store openings.
4. I enjoy the San Diego scene, the restaurants, the vibe and my connection to the active duty military and Veteran community.
5. I love my little rented bungalow house which has always been perfect for my life and home-based business.
6. Awesome place for a family. Future husband where are you?!!
Cons of San Diego
1. My ex-husband and his wife are here and if I run into them one more time! lol. As if….they matter.
2. Less fashion which could mean less experience, less money to be made, less industry exposure…and the excitement, possibly. All in perspective.
3. Maybe I do need to finally take the next risk and move on from here. I am open to it if pulled to do so.
Beyond the list, all I can do is do what I do, continue to learn, prepare, be in the moment and let if flow.
#Passion today over pension tomorrow.
Living life in style or die trying! LOL. XO, Lysandra
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